Everything Over Soon, Pls.

i cant.. wait for everything to be over.
O-V-E-R.

i dont like all the endless things piling up and feeling all so shit, over all the due dates. i mean, that's not what i'm paying for. i dont pay my sch fees for.. endless proj and rushing like an idiot just to pass up on time. just to meet datelines. i pay for knowledge which i'm not getting much of. (what i learn.. is not what i get to apply in real life, AT ALL.)

irritating. all the projects are irritating.

.... to be frank, if i can.. i wana be OUT since zillion of years ago. but.. my mother dont allow me to, and i hate disappointing ppl whom have high hopes on me.. even though i know she meant well.

the next time when i pursue my degree (yes i'll, provided i dont die so early.. and have the money).. i will definitely make sure it's sth which interest the hell out of me.. and sth which i'll definitely love.

.... not for anyone's sake. but mine.

nooooo. dont worry, i'm actually adapting well (at least i no longer feel as if i want to die soon). i'll survive it all. SRLY.

it's not elaine if i'm to admit defeat and give up, anyway. :)